Work has been going good. I had a very busy week last week at the spa. Love the place it is so beautiful and the staff there are a lot of fun. Clients have been a wide variety of great people.
I have tried 3 days this week to get the badge class in for the corporate job I start on the 28th. First day class was full by the time I signed in. 2nd day I got there and one of the papers for the contract was not faxed to me. 3rd day one of the papers was there but not signed by the lady that hired me. AHHHHHHHHH!!! This goes in the stress category. I am trying hard to stay up and positive but today has been hard. I just wanted to get the class done and move on.The class starts at 7 but I have to leave by 5 to get there by 6 to make sure I get singed in early. Alan tells me I am getting to upset about it all but that is the way I am.
Then we got a call that Gabby's liver count is really high. Even higher than after her last round of Remikade so she has to go in for an ultrasound next week and now I have to go back in for the class. So sad, I want to be there for her.
Workouts this week haven't been there. With getting up & having to leave that early (now my excuse) and coming home feeling frustrated & a little depressed I haven't felt that push. Yesterday I spent most of the day sleeping and freezing. I know I would feel an uplifting if I would just go hit the treadmill of something but feeling a little SO WHAT attitude. I hate when I do this to myself. After so many years of mental illness (major depression) and doing so well for a long time then it hits. It reminds me how much it stinks to be down. So I will get on with my pitty party today and tonight be better. I have maintained my weight loss just not feeling the confidence that I was.
So stress stinks! I try not to worry but it comes in and just puts itself in my mind. I will get over this stress that is invading my happiness.
So that is it for today. I will continue with my little party and move on. Another good cry is in store for tonight and then a hot bath, good book and a good night sleep. Starting tomorrow out with a workout on the treadmill and moving back to the motivation of health and happiness. Hugs, Bobbi Jo