Changing My Mind

I believe it was at the beginning of the year sometime that I decided I wasn't going to concentrate so much on the numbers of the scale. Well, I changed my mind. I have been eating lacoto-ovo-vegan (close to the 80/10/10 program) , cut out salt, cut out soda and eating about 85% to 90% raw foods for I think it is almost 3 weeks now. The salt a little less than that but still I am not seeing major results. Now mind you I am not pushing myself with my workout just eating healthy. I have decided I need to get things moving along here. Now here is my plan next week I will incorporate more walking, light weights and activity into my days.  We are going up to Pinetop to meet our new grand daughter that will be born on Monday the 16Th. Coco is having a C-section on Monday and Kyle will be with her till Wednesday when she comes home from the hospital being that Alan couldn't get off the entire week will will go up Wednesday and be there to help out with her other kiddos and of course enjoy time with her and the new little blessing. I figured I can take the kiddos on walks, play outside and go to the park to play. 

Dallas and Sara are going to come over and house sit for us so  we don't have to worry about the animals & my garden. 

 My plan then for the following week when we get back is to start out a major workout program. I would love to start to run again. I use to run when I was in Junior High and High School. I was training for my first marathon when I found out I was pregnant with Coco and I haven't ran seriously since then. I use to really enjoy running so I am going to do the "Couch to 5-K" program, some weight training and squeeze more activity into my days.
 You might ask "Why haven't you just started this week? " Knowing that we are going to Pinetop and trying to help out Coco as much as possible I didn't think I would have time to go running therefore I decided to wait till the following week. The date of that is 23Rd.
I have also set a goal to lose 35 pounds by the end of December. This is where the change in mind of the scale comes in. I have been staying steady but I am not happy with the weight I am. I am tired of feeling out of place, not being able to feel cute in the clothes that I like or even buy them where they would fit. I am sorry they do not make cute clothes for girls that are in the above average size range.
 I will not share my weight with you that is just too much for me to do. I will say that I am currently wearing a size 16 -18 blouse, I could wear a little smaller but I don't like my rolls of fat showing and my arms are huge that most of the smaller sizes are too uncomfortable.
 I wear a size 16 pants, I can't believe I am posting this! My thighs are huge. I use to be a power lifter in Jr.high and High school mostly specializing in squats and dead lifts. These both build up the thigh muscles and therefore I will never have little, skinny thighs but I can have tone ones. My waist has always been way smaller than the pants I have to get for my thighs but that is okay.
 So this is my plan as of now. I am still eating clean, low fat and mostly raw food.
Soon E'lyse and Faith will be back in school and we will be back to a regular routine so I now things will get a little better. Summers are a killer for me with the no regular schedule and the heat.
 I am not positive what I want my weight to be down to but I think the 35 will give me a big boost. I will be back to the weight I was before I started massage school and I felt so much better and I wasn't even eating all that great at the time.
 Any thoughts, ideas, suggestions or encouragement I would love to hear from you. Hugs, Bobbi  Jo

Happy New Year and Pink Saturday Will Be Late

Happy New Year to all of you in bloggy land! I wanted to start my year out right so I did my cardio with the treadmill on incline 11 %, then core work. I could feel that I hadn't done anything since Monday nights boot camp due to being sick. I think I pushed a little much but I did it non the less.
  I am surprised that we were able to welcome in the New Year. We are use to being in bed by 10:30 due to us getting up around 4:30 or 5 but we did it. Okay we were watching the movie "My Life In Ruins" and hubs fell asleep first. I was trying to watch it because I love the gal that plays in it but I couldn't hang. I feel a sleep for about 10 min. and woke up at 10 till midnight. I could hear the little girls yelling it is almost time. So we welcomed in the New Year and went back to bed. We didn't even drink our Sparkling Cider. Man we are party animals. LOL! It was so good to texts from friends and family wishing me a Happy New Year.
 I must say thank you to all of you who have been so kind in your comments about my last post. I wasn't fishing for compliments, honest. I do believe I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Not a major case or maybe it is just from what I have seen for so many years as I have looked in the mirror.  I see the pictures and I think Wow I have done a great job then I look in the mirror and I see just the opposite. This will be a main focus for me this year is to work on this. I have so many goals set. I had them typed out pretty specific but I keep getting more detailed with them all. You know that the main battle to becoming what you want to become is in your head. That's right! What you think you will become is what you will become. Positive affirmations will be posted all over my house to help me with this along with reading my goals twice daily and talking to myself in a loving & positive way.
 I am still tweaking my program. I want to do the Body For Life with a little more added cardio. My biggest goal for the year is dropping body fat so the muscle that is under the layers will be seen and I can appreciate all the hard work. Okay and wear a short sleeve blouse with out my arms flapping in the wind. Yes, touchy area for me.
 As I go along in this journey I know there are going to be challenges to overcome. I say "BRING THEM ON!" I am prepared and will overcome and learn and grow from them.
 One of the big things in my life is the love of my life who is also my greatest saboteur in the world. I love him but he puts food temptations there for me or time constraints so I will deal with these. I don't know if anyone else has this problem. My sweet hubby doesn't care if I lose weight or fat. He has loved me as I have put the weight on and then took a little off and then put 4 times as much on. I have decided I just have to do what I need to to reach the goals that I have set.
 With school starting time constraints will be a bit of an issue but I am working on the scheduling for exercise and eating. It is going to be a great journey this next year. My Dream year.
 I appreciate those who have shared their words of this year with me. We need to set goals and make them specific as possible. Also make sure you put down how you will do what you want to. This is part of the thinking that makes you achieve what you think. Your body can become what you think it can or can't. This saying was one I put on Facebook the other day and I just love it.
 "Whether you think you will fail, or not, you are right!" 

 Isn't that great. It is so true. Not that I am an expert but I am learning and want to share what is working for me in hopes that I can help or maybe even motivate you. Also make sure and right things as they are in the present tense. This will help your mind adjust and see what you think. ( This is my homework throughout the day!)
 It has taken me so long to decide to take care of me. Had I just taken a half hour a day when I had my children to exercise or take them for a walk I probably wouldn't be where I had ended up. So I am always telling young Mom's take time for yourself. It isn't selfish and you will be a better person for it.
  My Pink Saturday will be posted a little late in the morning.
 Well I am off to bed to rest my body. Have a wonderful night. Hugs, Bobbi Jo